It's Kind of Nice

It's kind of nice having a space that not a lot of people come to. As of right now, I have 0 followers, but that's okay with me. I can talk about what I want to and do it because that's what I want to do. It was a good day today. I spent the day with my family at the Dover Greek Festival, Wagon Hill Farm, and the Moore's for their annual clam bake. I felt fatigued at various points of the day, but the good thing is that I was out of bed for all of the day. Shayne stopped by this morning with Margaret and they were going to take Ezra home with them to feed him some breakfast but Ezra didn't go with them because we were getting ready to go to the Greek Fest. I asked Shayne how the prayer meeting was and he said it was good. He said that they prayed for us at the meeting and I asked, "Did anything good come out?" He said, "Yeah, you're healed." I'm not completely healed right now, but I know that God is doing something in me. I know He is healing me and trying to stay positive and full of faith, but the important thing is to remember that any of that is only by God's grace. I can do nothing in my own strength, but I can do all things through Christ Jesus, who strengthens me.
I really enjoyed my walk with Carrie and Ezra today at Wagon Hill. Carrie and I prayed together as we were walking and I am so thankful for my friends and family. There are so many people praying for us and caring for us, I feel so special and lucky. If there is one thing that I know that God is trying to teach / show me is that He loves me so much and He shows it through the people around me. Carrie especially has shown me so much love and I am so thankful for her. She has been a super trouper through all of the time I have known her. I hope I never forget the first time I met her. The first time I saw her was in Diana Morin's van as she pulled up to the Roger's house. She was wearing a teal t-shirt and jeans and she was so short behind the wheel of the van I can't believe she could see over the steering wheel. Anyway, I expected one thing and she totally caught me off guard. From the start, I dug her and I am so glad I'm with her. I just feel bad for her because I'm not as fun as she is and don't have the energy she has.
Which brings me to one of the cool parts of the day. We're all having a good time at the Moore's clam bake and as my family and the Roger's family are the last to leave, David Rogers talks to me about some of the dreams he has had over the past few weeks. He essentially said that he felt God saying to him, "I love Sam Hyun." The cool thing is that I woke up the other day to the song, His Banner over me is love. I woke up hearing it as clear as day. So is God trying to say something to me? I think so. God loves me. I love Him. I wish I knew how to love Him the same way He loves me, but I know that I am growing in it. I want so much to grow in my love to Him, my wife, my son, and everyone else around me.
Lord, help me to love.